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Fic: Family, Faith & Certitude (ch 7 of 7)

November 17th, 2007 (11:22 am)
where i am: coming up for air
how i am: accomplished
accompanied by: Turn Away, Buddahead

Summary: Bobby POV. Dean gets whomped, Sammy gets protective, John gets bad-ass and Bobby gets a shot at setting something right. Hurt/comfort, angst in spades. Concluding chapter 7.
Rating: PG13, T (harsh language)
Wordcount: approx. 12,000
Pairing/Characters: Genfic, no pairings. Bobby Singer, Dean, Sam & John Winchester
Spoilers: Minor, none beyond 2.22
Disclaimers: See my profile page
A/N: This story is written to completion and will be posted here to my lj in its entirety today. It'll start hitting the comms with a link to chapter one onward, once uploaded here. Major thanks and kudos to pdragon76for the awesome and jiffy quick beta and to heather03nmgfor the equally quick and detailed medical info. And to erinrua. . . hey, pard, you know I'm much obliged ;). These ladies are all made of awesomeness, as are Jennie and Penny for their help with every story I work on. Lastly, to moondropzand gatorpez, thank-you both for helping to keep the love alive with all your inspirational goodies. I'm dedicating Dean's lumps and bumps to you.   
Family, Faith & Certitude
by May Robinson
"Thanks, Bobby." Accepting Bobby's offering of freshly made coffee, Sam yawned wide enough to pop his jaw, then gave Bobby a salute with the nearly full mug he'd been handed.
"Careful, it's hot." The kid was done in, in need of the simple warning. Bobby stayed standing, about to hit the hay, for how long he wasn't sure. Knew it was futile but decided he'd suggest the same to the kid anyway. "You know, you could go on back to bed. Call it a night. I'm honestly sure Dean'll be fine if he sleeps through 'til morning."
The boy was shaking his head before Bobby'd finished speaking. "No. It's only for a few more hours anyway. Dean'll be pissed but I'm gonna keep it up for a while. See how it goes." Taking a swallow of java, Sam set it on the armrest of the chair he'd claimed once Bobby had vacated it. Bobby was glad for that at least. It'd be a helluva lot more comfortable for the kid's back, might even lull him into getting more sleep.
Reaching across a soundly sleeping Dean, Bobby grabbed up one of the extra blankets Ellen had placed on the back of the couch, then tossed it over the back of Sam's chair. Just in case he decided to be sensible and give up his vigil. "Well, suit yourself then. I'm gonna turn in. You want me to spell you again in two?"
"No, that's okay." Turning back to Dean, Sam lightly tugged the blanket up higher on Dean's chest, absently smoothing it flat before leaving his hand there to rest atop his brother's heart. "We'll be fine here."
All Bobby could do was nod. Throat constricting, caught up in the raw emotion he could feel emanating from the boy sitting vigil next to his brother, and memories slamming into him of another vigil from just the other night. Another grieving brother's dismissal. "Okay, Sam. You know where--" Damn near choking on the familiar words, he amended them. "I'm just down the hall. There if you need me."
Sam's attention was all on Dean, so Bobby bade him good-night, moved to leave. Hadn't quite made it out of the room when, "Hey, Bobby?" stopped him cold. The voice sounding small and so damn young.
"Yeah, Sam?"
Looking at Bobby now, he asked, "You said you and Dean were reminiscing earlier? About what?"
Bobby sighed then, leaned against the wall. "You boys and your dad mostly."
Sam bowed his head and Bobby could see, even from across the room, how hard the boy's Adam's apple was working just to get out what it was he wanted to say. And when they met gazes again, Bobby could see the room's lamplight reflected in the watery shimmer of Sam's eyes. He was smiling though. Sadly. "That was really something, wasn’t it? Dad climbing his way out of Hell. Getting out in time to save Dean." Shaking his head, amazement crossing his face when he continued. "I mean, can you believe that?"
Bobby smiled too. Thought about all the crazy, unbelievable things he'd seen over the years, then thought about John and his love for his boys. It made his answer an easy one. "Yeah, son, I can."
This time Sam even laughed a little, though when he spoke, it was with a quiet intensity. Bobby might have even said resolve. "I'm going to get Dean out of this deal, Bobby. This time, I'm going to save my brother." 
Oh, yeah. Definitely resolve.
Bobby didn't want to give the kid platitudes, didn't want to give him false hope. Didn't want to burden him with any more responsibility than he was already shouldering, but found himself saying the words anyway. Not to patronize or to comfort, but said with every ounce of faith and strength and certainty Bobby held in his heart.
"I know that, Sam. If there's a way, you'll find it. No doubt about it."
Because if there was one thing Bobby had learned over the past twenty years, it was this...

If anyone could save a Winchester, it was gonna be another Winchester.

Thanks for reading!


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Posted by: janissa11 (janissa11)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 06:16 pm (UTC)
sam 2 imtod

Oh, Sammy. Yes, you WILL. Beautiful story -- thank you for this!

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 06:28 pm (UTC)
Bros on set

I sure hope it's Sam, especially to the exclusion of Bela or Ruby. I don't hate the girls by any means... I just want Dean to feel safe and protected by Sam as an equal, finally. So maybe big brother Dean can let go a little of the responsibilities of the world.

I'm so pleased you enjoyed this. You know I love your work and it's always a treat to get positive feedback from someone whose writing I admire.

Thanks for the fun reminiscing of last night, too :D

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Posted at: May 10th, 2008 09:24 pm (UTC)

Posted by: hucknclem (hucknclem)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 06:43 pm (UTC)

Of course Sam will save him; wouldn't expect any less. Thanks so much for this; it totally put me in my happy place. :)

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 07:28 pm (UTC)
Mumpy Icon-legs

I sure as hell hope so! If john can't be there to do it, I want it to be Sammy and hopefully to the exclusion of Ruby and Bela. Dean needs to let go, learn that Sam is his equal and can provide him the same kind of sanctuary (or close to) as his dad did, otherwise I don't think he'll ever really feel "safe" again. If Sam can get him out of this deal, maybe that'll give Dean that bit of peace of mind I think he's been missing since John's disappearance.

I needed to write a hopeful fic plus wanted to deal with Dean's self-worth. I kept thinking that, if no one else can help him see it, some reminders of what he truly meant to John were necessary.

Thanks for the wonderful comments. I'm so glad you enjoyed the story :D.

Posted by: arrenall (arrenall)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 07:19 pm (UTC)

This was perfect. Absolutely perfect. My kind of story through and through. Great plotting and structure, dialogue, images, hell, just everything. I'm in awe, and will be back to read it again. Thank you sooooo much.

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 07:34 pm (UTC)

What lovely feedback, thank-you! I was actually pretty surprised that I could tell this story in only about 12,000 words. Years ago it would have taken twice as many or more and likely not have been better for it. Your comments really please me, I'm so glad everything you listed worked for you as they did. Praise like that is a day-brightener and I truly thank you for taking the time to let me know what you liked.

Come back and re-read it any time :D.

Thanks again so much!

Posted by: Maybe Katie (ladykatiewench)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 08:16 pm (UTC)

Okay, first I wanna say that I'm sorry for not commenting on any of the other chapters as I read through it. I just didn't even bother to stop. This story had me going on to the next chapter, the next page, as soon as the last one was done.

I loved the way it transitioned from the younger boys to older. How it gave Bobby a chance to get some perspective on the Winchesters and then to try to give it back.

Just excellent! Excellent!

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 08:44 pm (UTC)

Please don't feel bad at all for not commenting on every chapter. I consider it a huge compliment that you wanted to read more and right away ;).

I'm so glad you enjoyed the story. I knew the transition might throw readers but I didn't want to give any warnings about pre-series vs not, aside from the fact that I didn't call it a pre-series piece. I felt it would be more effective to just let the reader discover what was happening as they read it and your feedback makes me feel that it worked. Glad to hear it :D.

Thanks so much for taking the time to both read and comment. I greatly appreciate it.

Posted by: kunju (innie_darling)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 08:22 pm (UTC)
dean is at home with bobby

I was going along, enjoying this story, when I got to chapter five and then it hit me that THAT's what you had been getting at all along. Nicely done!

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 08:48 pm (UTC)
Bros on set

Thank-you, I'm glad to hear the message was received ;) If only TV Dean would get it too *sigh*.

I greatly appreciate you taking the time to read and send your feedback letting me know you enjoyed the story. Thanks again.

Posted by: Weesta (weesta)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 08:45 pm (UTC)
Supernatural - Trio - Fathers and sons

I'm so glad you posted this all in one shot - it was a pleasure to read it all the way through.

I thought you did a lovely job with everyone's voices - Bobby in particular. Particularly in the final, present-day scenes, I could really hear Bobby, Dean and Sam. They were right on.

The chapter with Dean being wounded and John's reaction to it was just heartbreaking. Very intense! I also loved the "Hallmark moment" in the hospital. I thought Bobby's POV was teriffic all the way throughout. Great job!

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 08:51 pm (UTC)

Thank-you! Nothing pleases me more than feedback that says I've got the voices or characterizations right. I agonize over every word, particularly in this story, so comments such as yours just make it all worthwhile. Make my day actually :D.

Thanks so much for taking the time to read and comment. It's truly appreciated.

Posted by: jdsgirlbev (jdsgirlbev)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 09:18 pm (UTC)

*sniffle* Oh, all right damn it! *weeps* That was wonderful. Especially the recognition that John fought off POSSESSION by THE YED. That was something exceptional and extraordinary that could only have been accomplished by love.

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 18th, 2007 01:31 am (UTC)

Aw, thank-you! I just love to hear that a story I've written has moved someone that much. Honestly, I had myself going a few times *g* and though the parts that got to me most were written before last week's ep aired, I found they hit me even harder after watching the episode. Largely because of feeling that absence/presence of John *sigh*.

Though I've read a few fics that have addressed John willing himself out of the Demon's control, they've only been "Sam guilt" ones, written after BUaBS where he feels guilt for not being able to do what John was able to. I've never read anything though that truly acknowledged what a remarkable feat that was, and knew that this fic of mine would be able to at least do that. Given everything else we've seen about demon possession, I can't help but think that what he did was *monumental* and once again is indicative of the depth/intensity of his love for his kids. YED was torturing/killing his son and John did the impossible and broke free for a moment, long enough to altar the events of that night dramatically. another reason to love the man.

I was actually secretly hoping you'd read this because I wanted to know if you felt it would qualify as a Backroads story. Truthfully, when I first envisioned it, John's part in the story was bigger. I didn't reduce it in the slightest but the post AHBL2 scenes grew larger than anticipated and took up almost half of the story. That being the case, I'd appreciate your opinion. No problem at all if you say no, God knows I've x-posted it ad nauseum today but I still think of it very much as a John story so I did want to ask.

Thanks so much for reading it and for letting me know how you felt about the story. And of course I'm always happy to discuss John ;).

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Posted at: November 18th, 2007 02:11 am (UTC)

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Posted at: November 18th, 2007 04:26 am (UTC)

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Posted at: November 18th, 2007 03:58 pm (UTC)

Posted by: Invisible Friend (el1ie)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 09:21 pm (UTC)

oh dear, ::sniffle:: this one really caught me out.

I loved the structure of this and the sudden switch into the end of last season was a complete surprise. (shhh...I always forget to read the spoiler warnings *g*) I loved how the two stories meshed so well together and was a real delight.

You are still one of the great descriptive writers out there, love your scenes so much, so visual and everything flows together so well.

But wow, your characters here were stunning, especially John and Bobby I think, great antagonism with a basis of deep connection and understanding and the two of them butting heads all the times they were together was very well put together.

The dialogue was terrific too, very much in character and very funny in places it was so easy to imagine Dean and Bobby talking, how they both looked and reacted to each other, teasing and comfortable even when struggling with the deal Dean made - only Bobby could ever call Dean on that.

Absolutely loved how Sam was still not able to sneak up on his big brother and the bond between these two and Sam's concern was so touching, only to be greeted by """"He'd be doing perfectly fine if someone would keep their giant paws off him and let him get some fucking sleep."""" *Hee* I so love that, that is just "them" isn't it?

Loved it, thanks so much for writing it and sharing. Ellie

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 18th, 2007 12:02 am (UTC)

Oh, Ellie, what lovely feedback. I'm so glad you enjoyed the story! The comments about characterization just brighten my day... with 4 distinct, strong male characters to deal with, I so wanted to find each of their individual voices. I'm glad to see they worked for you.

Writing John and Bobby together was so much fun. I think Kripke and crew missed out on some scene chewing opportunities by never having JB and JDM act together but then, my idea of them being friends, even if tempers flared to extremes, is one that I *want* to be true so maybe it's best that canon didn't provide scenes between them that might prove otherwise.

I resisted calling the fic 'pre-series' and wondered if I was giving away too much by referring to series era spoilers but took my chances. I wanted the time shift to be a little surprising and was pretty pleased with how it turned out. Glad you liked it!

Thanks as always for reading and sending your feedback. And now that I've put this story to bed, I can take the time to play catch up on other good fic reading plus videos to watch ;). I can't wait to reward myself by watching yours *g*.

Posted by: saberivojo (saberivojo)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 09:21 pm (UTC)

There is so much about this I liked. I loved Dean and John in the bar, John actually deferring to Dean when it came to the fight. I kind of think that as Dean became older, there were times when John allowed him to make some decisions himself. I think this was a pretty big deal for John though, but he trusted Dean to be able to handle himself in a fight.

I love Bobby through out. How concern for the boys evloves into love for the whole family. Because I think that would be Bobby. It is pretty early on that we know that Bobby and John had some harsh words between them. It is good to know that Bobby and John can feel like that toward one another and still remain friends.

Of course Sam and Dean. Something about Sam as a gangly 15 year old, standing up in front of his big brother in a bar fight. Protecting him. God I loved that. We see Dean protecting Sam all the time, I like the role reversal.

Awesome job.

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 18th, 2007 12:15 am (UTC)
Burgundy Dean

Thanks as always for the very kind words. I just envision john and bobby as both strong men with very strong personalities who *would* get into some pretty heated arguments but still be there for each other if they were in a very serious bind. When Bobby basically shrugged off Dean expressing that concern, I just extrapolated and assumed that whatever grudge he may have had against john, it was forgiven.

Regarding the bar scenes, I truly had fun writing all of them, even what was going on in the billiards room behind the scenes had me grinning. but yeah, I just adore the idea of a gangly Sam being a 'little' wildcat after witnessing an attack on Dean.

It's always great to hear from you and I'm so glad you enjoyed this one. I hoped that would be the case since I never want to let down anyone who has been so positive and supportive since I started writing in this fandom.

Thanks a bunch :D

Posted by: saberivojo (saberivojo)
Posted at: November 18th, 2007 02:13 am (UTC)

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 18th, 2007 04:03 am (UTC)

Posted by: Jo (apieceofcake)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 11:41 pm (UTC)
father & sons

Nicely done! Enjoyed it, thank you :-)

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 11:47 pm (UTC)

Thanks for reading and for letting me know you enjoyed it :).

Posted by: yasmine32068 (yasmine32068)
Posted at: November 17th, 2007 11:53 pm (UTC)

Excellently done!!!

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 18th, 2007 12:04 am (UTC)
Burgundy Dean

Thanks so much for taking the time out of your day to read one of my stories and to let me know you enjoyed it :D.

Posted by: GoddessKirstein (goddesskirstein)
Posted at: November 18th, 2007 12:56 am (UTC)

Wow, i loved this fic, i was bit choked up too.
Loved the defensive parent moment from John too - and Sammy is always dorkable =]
Hail to the Bobby for his putting up with our Winchesters!

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 18th, 2007 01:13 am (UTC)
Bros on set

Thank-you, it's always lovely to hear if a story I've written has moved a fic-reader. Glad you enjoyed that little moment with John, and Sam's gawky teenage-dom. I had so much fun writing the scenes in the bar, letting my imagination run :D

And yes, Bobby is priceless. I just adore him which is largely why I've written twice now from his POV. I think he's very pragmatic and, as a bit of an outsider, can put a different spin on things. Plus he's simply a great character in his own right.

Thanks again for reading and for taking a moment to tell me what you liked.

Posted by: jorma_duran (jorma_duran)
Posted at: November 18th, 2007 01:17 am (UTC)

This is incredible. Thank you so much for sharing. And I love that you posted it all in one piece. I think the effect is so much greater when you can get the whole story in one setting.

The voice of all the characters is just so spot on. I really like that it was told from Bobby's pov. Still an outside perspective, but he has so much more insight into the workings of the Winchesters. And the fierceness of their love. Wow.

I love how you wove the memory into the present-time story. There is so much depth!

Really great fic, thanks again.

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 18th, 2007 01:58 am (UTC)

Thank-you so much for your feedback. Aside from breaking the story up the way I did (in 7 parts), I did want to post it in one go. I felt it would flow better and make more sense this way, as opposed to making the reader wait. Though dividing it up as I did gave just enough mini cliffhangers (like commercial breaks) to keep things interesting. Or, at least that was the plan ;).

I'm always thrilled if voice/characterization is singled out as something I've done right. It's the feedback that pleases me most and certainly what I work hardest at. If you've read my other stories loaded here, you'll see a trend and won't find complex plots/plot heavy stories, which I *love* to read but am not compelled to write. It's the characters that fascinate me and who I so love to play with *g*.

I agree that Bobby is just a wonderful POV to use. He's enough of an outsider to give us a different perspective, especially from his pragmatic POV but he also knows the family well enough to be able to read between the lines and give us insights from that angle also. I adore him!

Thank-you again for reading and for taking the time to let me know what you enjoyed. Have a super weekend!

Posted by: arrenall (arrenall)
Posted at: November 18th, 2007 01:58 am (UTC)

Just read it for the second time. Wow again. This is my new favorite SPN fic, hands down.

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 18th, 2007 02:04 am (UTC)
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I adore you for letting me know this! What an ego boost *g*.

That really is too sweet and so flattering and it touches me incredibly that you enjoyed the story so much. It definitely puts me in a happy place. Thank-you :D.

Posted by: ladymirth (ladymirth)
Posted at: November 18th, 2007 02:21 am (UTC)

I think I finally understand all the Bobby love. I mean, I like Bobby well enough, but I didn't get why so many people fangirled him. Now I know. He's a different kind of awesome.

This fic took me to a very happy, warm and snug place. It encapsulates all the reasons why we love the Winchesters. I want to snuggle Dean and Sam.

I particularly enjoyed your description of the teenage Sam and Dean. I remember seeing pics of Jared when he was about eighteen and thinking thathe looked rather like a mantis. I could never have predicted the hunk he is now. And I fell in love with Jensen when he was 22 and in Dark Angel. He's hot and manly now, but back then he was just as delicate and beautiful as an angel. I can see how something like him would get noticed instantly in your local pool parlour.

Paddling in the shallow end, there. =D LOVED this, love the boys, love Bobby and love you! And your cat.

Posted by: May Robinson (may7fic)
Posted at: November 18th, 2007 04:00 am (UTC)

I think Bobby, with his generally pragmatic personality, can be used as a voice of reason in all the chaos that is the Winchesters' existence. I hope Kripke and crew use him in this fashion a bit more.

Honestly, I love him but I miss John terribly. Bobby definitely offers a unique outsider POV with the insights of someone who knows the Winchesters well enough to recognize some of their hidden language. That makes him a wonderful tool to use in writing. Plus I love playing with his somewhat "good old boy" voice... it's very fun to write, assuming I'm getting it right ;).

I watched DA with my hubby first season and Ben knocked me off the couch and onto the floor to get a closer look at this beautiful young actor's performance. I was so disappointed when he was killed off. I didn't like the show though so let the hubby watch season 2 on his own. I was likely up here in the computer room writing or reading Mag7 fic. When the hubby recognized Dean as that kid from DA, I could've killed him. How dare he not drag me downstairs back then to watch the wonderfully complex and gorgeous Alec *g*. I made up for that loss buying the s2 DVDs. What a beautiful and interesting character *sigh*. And I do envision Dean as pretty as Jensen was at that age... how can I not? I really enjoyed writing the scenes in the bar, they were quite fun.

Thanks so very much for your lovely review. My 8 dogs and I truly appreciate it *g*.

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